Body positivity is a huge part of mental health. So, today I thought I’d share how I’ve been affected by body positivity.
I never had an issue with my looks until I was late into my teens. If I could pinpoint one moment that started my body issues I would say when my partner at the time told me I needed to lose weight off my stomach. Now at this point, I was 5ft 3″ (161 cm) and 7 stone (44km). The smallest I’ve ever been. So much that I often got comments and questions about me being anorexic. So as you can imagine that did wonders for my self-confidence. I think this was one of the starting points as to how uncomfortable I now feel in my appearance.
I have over the years put on weight for a number of different reasons. Over the past year and a half, I have been working seriously on getting myself back in shape but that is taking time. I’m also extremely self-conscious about both my legs and the top of my arms.
I couldn’t tell you where either of these issues came from, but the issues with my legs were there when I was a teenager. So much so that through my high school life I refused to wear a skirt, even in the middle of summer. I chose to boil in horrendous trouser rather than have my legs out even with tights on.
I’m still getting comfortable going out without tights on. (I got over the skirt thing when I realised no trousers will ever fit me!) But I’m still conscious about how my legs look. Because I’m so pale I end up with red marks on them, I know I’m the only one who probably notices or cares but I’m still wary. I am pushing myself whenever it’s warm to go out without tights.
The same is said with my arms, I have really bad dry skin often with patches of redness. I always cover up my shoulders with a jacket or cardigan.
With that in mind, Conor and I went to the beach the other day and I liked what I was wearing so I enlisted him as my photographer. I wanted to try and embrace myself, especially the parts of myself I’m not 100% comfortable with.
This is how I’m attempting to overcome my body confidence issues. It’s not going to be easy but with work, I’ll get there. My first step was taking these photos, for most of them I kept my jacket on covering my shoulders but I made sure to get a few without it.
I’m not 100% happy with how I look in this photo but I think it’s important to share it.
To continue this idea of body positivity I’m starting a new blog series beginning next Wednesday. The past few weeks I’ve enjoyed creating different outfits and going out and taking photos with them. So, I’m going to do a weekly post to showcase these images. It’s encouraging me to think more about my wardrobe. (I need to reduce what I have in there)
Also to embrace myself, become more body confident and get more comfortable in front of the camera. You can see the first post here.
Is this series something you would be interested in? I’m no fashion expert it’s just something I’m enjoying.
This was a bit of a different post but thank you for reading. Do you have any advice for someone struggling with body confidence? If so I’d love to know in the comments below.